Bad Directions

I hate the world.

I've been spending an offensive amount of money working with a homeopath and chiropractor trying to figure out why I can't lose weight/stick to a weight loss plan. I have been very clear with both specialists that my goals are (1) health that leads to (2) weight loss. I know I can lose weight in unhealthy ways, but any success I have is only temporary. Now that I actually understand that health leads to weight loss, my goal is to be healthy because a healthy person won't be fat.

During my most recent appointment with my homeopath we discussed my eating plan. She suggested I try the Weston A. Price (WAP) method of eating for optimum health. She also added that, when she eats this way, she loses weight.

Ok, sounds good. I do a bunch of research, buy a book, and go shopping for the recommended groceries.

I email her to confirm that it's ok for me to follow this diet 90% of the time. I need SOME wiggle room because I have a life. She assures me that, yes, following this diet 90% of the time is just great.

I will state AGAIN that she knows weight loss is one of my main goals.

This Monday I weighed myself in preparation for my meeting with my chiropractor as he requires me to provide my weight. Much to my surprise, my weight is as high as it was last July when I returned from an out of town wedding. Needless to say, I was very upset that after nearly two weeks of following the WAP guidelines, I was just as heavy as if I'd been eating garbage to my heart's content.

I immediately emailed my homeopath to find out why this happened.

She then changes her story: the WAP way of eating is for optimum health, but eating sugar and carbs (even 10% of the time) can cause weight gain when eaten in conjunction with the WAP diet. For weight loss I should be following the guidelines of the book "Eat Fat, Lose Fat".

WTF??? Not only did I inform her of my goals (not just in passing, mind you, but through hours of sobbing in her office), but I reached out to her to ensure that I could follow WAP 90% of the time. Now I'm told not only do I need to read a different book, but following WAP 90% of the time will cause weight GAIN.

I want to cry. I want to scream. I feel lied to, misled, deceived, cheated, etc. I'm so fucking frustrated.

Why, why, WHY is this so hard?