I'm feeling pretty horrible about myself today. It's hard to feel good about myself when I'm so discouraged by what I see in the mirror. We've only been dieting for 2.5 weeks so how much of a change could I possibly expect to see? My logical brain knows it's too soon to see any real difference, but that's not any consolation.
I'd like to think I would feel less horrible if I didn't also hate my short, blah hair. I went blonde last year and fried my hair. At my last trim (and at my insistence) my stylist kept cutting until all the dead hair was gone. This is what we ended up with. I hate it so much. Transient or not, I look like shit.
I'm sure I'm just feeling so down about myself because not only am I super tired, but I start my period in 2 days.
I'm also feeling munchy today. I'm not craving a particular food (did I ever, really?), but I would love to just shove a bunch of food in my mouth. To have a pile of assorted garbage at my desk would be perfect. I would just unwrap one thing after another and mindlessly eat the day away. I wouldn't taste much of it, but that wouldn't matter. It would temporarily suppress how awful I'm feeling.
There I go again trying to avoid feeling.
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